Hi friends,
We are 10% into the year and many unexpected things have already happened.
We love a good plot twist don’t we?
Plot twists come with big emotions.
Ones that I've tried so hard to avoid. And ones that I never knew that I had the capacity to feel.
I wanted to approach these big emotions the same way I’ve always done.
To sit and feel them. To journal about them. And rationalise or explain them away.
While I was sitting with them, I realised how everything I’ve been feeling lately are from things I’ve hoped for a long time.
One of my fears was to not feel deeply. To shut off and deal with the world and all its joys and challenges calmly and with less anxiety.
I wanted to live more boldly and lock in.
The thing is - Big emotions come with living fully.
Feeling absolutely nothing is a lot more scary to me than feeling overwhelmed with joy and at the same time, scared that I could be disappointed.
To be emotional is to know that what you’ve done, who you are with and what this is or was is special. It was rare. It required effort.
While these big emotions can be difficult to confront and perhaps a lot to feel, it is at these times where I remind myself that these are what makes it all memorable and meaningful.
How lucky is it to feel cared for?
The butterflies, the full belly laughs, and the moments when your heart skips a beat.
How beautiful is it to get to reminisce?
To feel sad that things will be different. To be disappointed and frustrated at how things turned out. But also excited and hopeful that things will be different.
Sit with those big emotions. It is okay if they feel intense. Because they will eventually fade - as all emotions do.
Also, reject the need to resolve conflicting emotions. Who is to say that you can only feel one thing at once?
We are 10% into the new year. What I meant to say is that we are only 10% into the year.
I’m going to leave you with this for the next 90%.
When the big emotions subside, the monotonous days creep in, and every fiber of your body wants to not feel anything at all - try to remember that you are capable of feeling and experiencing more.
things that resonated with me
The Trauma Code: Heroes on Call - Hospital kdrama lighthearted watch for when you just want to not think
Talking At Night by Claire Daverly - loved this book! A raw, messy and beautiful love story.
The more I heal, the less ambitious I become. - Nadia Meli
In case you missed it: In my last post, I talk about turning 26 / full frontal lobe development.
A question for you!
When is the last time you cried?
Always open to learning more and hearing from you 😊
Thanks for reading!
Stay inspired,
Viv